Monday, August 22, 2011

So Proud

I haven't written in a while - been pretty busy I guess.  But I just wanted to say how proud I am of my son.  I was thinking back to a year ago and how much he has grown in the past 12 months.  Did you know that one year ago he couldn't sit up on his own without support?  And now look at him - almost standing.  He wasn't saying any words and now he has many.  I just can't believe how much has changed in 1 year.  I keep thinking about the future.  I read articles like this one:
http://www.postandcourier.com/news/2011/aug/21/disabled-reach-college-dreaams/


And I am inspired.  I want so much for my little Jack and if the past year has taught me anything it's that he is 100% capable  - not that I ever doubted that.  And even if he weren't doing the things he is doing now, I would still be proud.  We celebrate the big things like most people, but sometimes the "little" things  - like waving bye bye or picking up food or recognizing your name are much bigger to those of us with children with special needs. We wait so long it seems to see that wave of a hand, or hear mama, or the ability to hold a bottle or cup.  But it is worth the wait for sure.  The journey makes the result so sweet.  His sweet little voice brings tears to my eyes every time he tries to say a new word. And when those little chubby wrists and stubby fingers wave bye bye something happens inside me.  My heart skips a beat...smile takes over and pride fills my soul.  I am proud of him.  I know how hard he works and I. am. proud.    I can't describe the love and honor I feel as his mother.  This weekend Aunt Lo LO and I took him to the mall with his gait trainer to practice walking.  That would embarrass some people, but I was beaming with joy and pride.  I didn't care nor notice if people stared in a weird way - I was way too busy being in love with my precious sweet boy.
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I literally cannot describe how crazy I am about this little man and how each day he brings a smile to my face.  I am truly truly blessed and could not be more proud.  My only regret so far is that time is going too fast.  Needs to slow down.